zeitgeist wrote:I have contemplated formally studying astronomy so many times it's ridiculous. My girlfriend and I have been members at the local planetarium for over a year and love hanging out there. I'm really interested in the stories of all our ancestors about the stars. Also places like the old barrows of Denmark, and Ramses' Abados temple where the light from certain celestial objects cast light beams down hallways on precise equinoxes, etc. People of the past had much more general interest in this stuff that "hangs above our heads" 24/7 than most people seem to today. I would guess a large majority of people today couldn't tell ya why the sky is blue. Maybe that's because we know now that those objects are flaming balls of hydrogen and rock, not gods, and they have football games to watch, who knows?
one of the most intense experiences of my life was one particular very clear night i spent in the desert several years ago--the clearest night you can imagine. it gets to a point, i'm sure some of you have seen, when there's no light pollution, that it's almost literally overwhelming how many stars are visible. like every 5 seconds of eye adjustment warrants a thousand more stars it seems. then, the milky way "rose" on the horizon. laying on my back looking up, with the nearest light source 50 miles away, i felt like i could suddenly and distinctly perceive the motion and spatial layout of all. the perpendicular ring of our galaxy combined with the distant horizon where i was laying just made this phenomenal optical illusion (without obviously being an "illusion" exactly). i guess it's hard to describe. everything i saw lined up in such a way that i had about 30 minutes of seemingly perfect 3D perspective of this corner of our solar system. it was like, "ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh mmmmannnnnnn hhhhaaaaaannnnnngggg ooooooooooonnnnn!!!" like i was desperately gripping onto the front of a tennis ball that had just gotten served at 20,000 miles an hour. it scared the holy bejeezus out of me at least. only a few places have done anything similar for me since.
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wow, dude! that sounds phenomenal!
i can definitely say there have been times when it's almost terrifying to look up.
i was standing on top of the rim of Haleakala Crater near the visitor center in Maui, Hawaii about an hour before sunrise. My family and I were taking an all-day bike tour down the mountain and down into the lowlands of Maui that day, and we started here at about 4:30 or 5 in the morning. It was so cold we were all wearing protective windsuits and hoods - positively freezing! And yet, not 10 miles to our west, the valley was typical Hawaiian tropical warm.
From on top of that mountain, above the clouds, you could look up and every time you turned your eyes upwards, you'd almost be guaranteed to see a shooting star or two. We also saw several satellites and spacecraft drifting by overhead. that was one of those experiences where, it was so bright and so real and so ....right there in front of you, it was scary. It was almost like looking at a huge animal, bigger and huger than any planet, as big as a galaxy, and wondering if you'd catch its eye back, and what in the world you could do about it if that did happen.
i believe the crux of the quintessential existential crisis is the realization that one is standing on a ledge facing oblivion full-on, and there is nothing stopping you from stepping off except yourself. this was one of those moments.