WeHadNormality wrote:rainier wrote:rainier wrote:I'm in a crazy situation right now that involves an absolute lunatic and I wish there was some kind of handbook that taught you how to deal with people like that.
I used to have such a low key, nerdy life. Wtf happened?
Also she's probably reading this. Fun times.
twist ending! The person I thought was the crazy person was actually not crazy and the person telling me she was crazy was actually the crazy one.
The jury is still out on if I'm crazy for believing any of this.
My life has all the subtlety of a goddamn m. night shymalan movie.
This reminded me of the poem "If" by Rudyard Kipling.
"If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs"
Oh wow, that poem really hit the spot. Yeah, I'm feeling that hardcore right now.
This crazy situation had just been going on for so long and it was really taking it's toll on me. I'd been off the sauce for 2 years and I started drinking again and my anxiety was through the roof.
In a weird way finding out the worst case scenario is somehow less painful then staying in the dark any longer, even though in the dark I could still hold onto the illusion that this person really meant it when they said they loved me/needed me/etc and all that crap.
Maybe I'll have a delayed reaction where I'm really upset about it later on, but right now I feel saner than I have in months. I almost can't feel sad about losing someone I loved because now I understand that person isn't even real. I got totally keyser sozed haha.
Weird unintended fallout from the tomorrow's harvest campaign haha. Who would have guessed.
All of old. Nothing else ever. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.