Trying to relax to this. 5am, haven't slept, have a day of backbreaking garden related labor ahead of me while chronically sleep deprived, fun times. On a positive note though, seeing the sunrise and listening to this is giving me the warm fuzzies.
There was no reason for me to stay in the real world any longer. In the real world, it didn't matter if I was there or not. When I realized that, I was no longer afraid of losing my body.